the crochetinator

my randomness in crochet, and my attempt to finish all the projects i start...

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

i think i'll blog...

ok, so this may not totally be craft related, but very well could be in the end...we'll call it slightly wedding related...

first, i think i changed my colors. they were raspberry and champagne (aka light gold for the boys), but i have this beautiful set of candle holders that i brought back from morocco and i absolutely looooooooooove them, so i have to incorporate a light blue (oceanish), dark blue, and deep yellow into the wedding somehow....not totally overwhelming inclusion, but some inclusion....and it does have a raspberry in it too! So it actually works pretty well...

which brings me to the bridesmaid dresses...i just can't find anything that i particularly like that doesn't cost $300 (thanks jcrew...) and i've thought about having them made and buying the fabric and supplying it to the dressmaker. I contacted one yesterday, she got back to me and said that she charges 300-600!! I couldn't believe that...and her work totally was not the best....anyway, i want a dress the girls can wear bras with, so something with straps otherwise you get them pulling up the strapless or have the 3rd and 4th boob problem, even if the girls are 20lbs...not my style! anyway, i searched a bunch of patterns last night and fabrics. I found an easy vogue pattern and some silk taffeta for about $7 /yd. BUT, i'm only kinda insane in thinking i can do this myself...it's a simple a-line, double v dress (see ann taylor celebrations, christine style...i suck at inserting pics...).

The only thing with the new color palette is i'm thinking of having the girls wear a different color ribbon of it...or maybe just put some in the flowers and their jewelry, which may be super cool...but i still can't find a dress color i like, in the style i want! so that's frustrating!

BUT this may have solved my invitation dilemna...i was thinking about stealing little jessica's idea...and admittedly stealing it and not saying that it was my own idea....instead i could do a nice graphic design from the pattern on the candle holders and such on the top of the invite. We could get them copied at kinko's and use some markers to color in...but i still have to play with the designs and decide what i want to do...

and flowers...i think i want tulips...but maybe the flowers will be different now that i have new colors to use...i was thinking of going for a shades of pink, but now i could do a pink, yellow twist with a light blue bow on it....now just for the deep blue...we'll have to see, who knows, i may go to hobby lobby and wonder around looking at the different type of flowers so that i can be educated when i go meet with my florist!

ok, enough of my wedding-ness onto craft time....oh and i may totally try a trial of the dress i want the girls to wear so that i can see how insane i truly am and will give up the thought! that's the only way it will work!! but i have to do one more painting for the girl at work of her parents dog swimming...and i'm totally going to get into watercolor since i love spring! AND i'm totally running everyday! take that!

ok, enough blogging for this girl

kar

Monday, March 05, 2007

have you ever had the feeling....

that you kinda suck at life??

i mean, i went for a position that i'm really perfect for and would be great at, but because i didnt have the right experience, i didn't get it. and oh, now starting in july, i will have to commute 45 min for a job that i don't like and don't see myself at and feel like i'm wasting my potential. and it's not that i feel entitled to something awesome, its just i want something more...and i can't have that and i feel like i will not have anything wonderful handed to me.

yes, i have a great fiance and i live well for my life but i need something more...i want to not do this anymore, and it's hard...why can't i ever have the right things...why cant i find what i need? it's too crappy to do...and what sucks is that i can't ever have what i want or what would be perfect...i need to just stop and let go, this wasn't right, but it seemed like it was....i just want something to work...and i can't find it...can it just find me? at least just this once?

and don't tell me that it makes me stronger. that's what people say to make them feel better, i don't need to be any stronger, i just want something a little easy...and this is not fun AT ALL...ok, that's my vent...feel free to say, i feel you because you probably do!

kar